Monday, June 29, 2009

Connectedness



That's my cat. She's like 14 or something. That's pretty old for a cat. But recently I've been trying to imagine what it's going to be like when my cat dies. I don't have a very good memory of my past, primary school is mainly a blur, as is pretty much all of my early childhood and, really, my first 3 years of high school, so there isn't really a time in my life when I can't remember my cat, Fuzzy, being around. It's going to be pretty sad and different when she dies. I'm not going to see her every morning run out of the way of the car, hear her late-night fights with that seedy ginger cat, feel her soft fur while she's munching away while simultaneously purring each night. I kinda don't want her to die.

But that leads me to pontificate on things we take for granted. Whether it's things like my cat that we expect to be there each and every day, even though I don't take special notice of her. Or maybe it's those people that when you catch the late train by yourself that you sometimes see and feel like you have a connection with them, even if they've never noticed you're there. I like those people.

On my late train, the people I love to see are:
  • The Asian woman who's mouth looks like a shark's mouth.
  • The fully sick businessman who always chews gum.
  • The scene chick who gives me weird looks.
  • The gnarly dude who listens to mix-tapes (ie. tape decks).
  • The super-hot Eurasian chick who's extremely short.
  • PJ Harvey girl: The über-babe who I'd like to be friends with because she kinda looks like PJ Harvey.
Yeah, I give people their own little nicknames they'll never hear. Ever. I was going to compliments Eurasian chick the other day because she was wearing a mega-funky dress and was listening to Yeah Yeah Yeahs, but I didn't. I couldn't face the reality that she'd give me a discerning look and think:
"This kid's a stalker who was looking at my iPod, WTF."
When all I'd like to do is tell her she looked really cool.

Wow...I love dream worlds...

Elliott Smith - Son of Sam

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Jealousy



It's a bitch. I agree with some, I have no reason to be jealous of people. I have a fully functional family, I live in an upper-middle class suburb, I have a girlfriend, I have an iPod and iPhone, numerous consoles and luxuries. But because I don't have a really high "self-worth" (as retreat put it), I believe I have less than what's present in reality.
I'm jealous of Mr Kevin Pereira: he works on Attack of the Show, the best show on TV.
I'm jealous of Thom Yorke: he is an amazing songwriter with an incredible voice to match.
I'm jealous of Daniel Bouzo: he gets to meet King Juan Carlos I (King of Spain).
I'm jealous of anyone who gets to have sex.
It's sickening to think that I've got no artistic measure, no technical talent on my guitar or that I won't get the golden opportunity to be an ABC3 host.
It's depressing.

I've tried to write music: it failed (bar MxP and Dreamings). I practice my guitar more than most people would: I hardly get better. I want to be on fucking TV talking about shit I like. Fuck.

Retreat was a good time. Everyone was chilling and everyone was happy and I felt good. Now that the HSC is getting closer and everyone I know is pressuring me more, I'm starting to return to my dry self. Why am I so devoid of musical vision or guitar skills? How come the more I seem to practice, I still end up fucking up in my lessons with Steve? It's crap.

But some people would be jealous of me. Can't really see why, I'm such a dry and boring guy. How my girlfriend is attracted to me is yet another mystery. I guess this shit just stems from the whole self-worth thing. And how much I expect of myself. And how little I believe in myself.

Modest Mouse - Dance Hall

P.S. My parents are strict retards whom are trying to prohibit me from not sleeping, which I naturally don't do but am making worse by staying up until 1:30am every morning watching Wimbledon when I get up at 6 to get the train to school. Fucking assholes.

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Saturday, June 20, 2009

Hyper >>



Being a video game asshole, I have a shitload of Hyper magazines. It's a monthly mag that has info on everything. Thankfully I subscribe (nearly 3 years now) to it, as a month without Hyper would just be wrong. It's what I look forward to. It's one of the things that keeps me going. A little escape, you know? I have nearly a years worth of Hyper in my bathroom (yes, I read on the toilet).

It's not just the great journalism, interesting features, monthly columns and extremely informative reviews that I like so much. No. What instantly attracts me to each and every issue of this great magazine is the art direction. The entire magazine has a simple, effective theme which flows brilliantly with the screenshots in reviews and previews or feature photographs. Also, the cover always looks very polished and professional, but I guess that's the aim of one isn't it?

Or maybe I just like video games too much? Probably, after all, I've got 6 consoles, 3 rare Game and Watches and 4 handheld consoles. And a fuckload of games. Oh god, I'm so pathetic...
I think I'll get Issue 15 of Sneaker Freaker to increase my cool points (ta, Pills).

Common - The Light (comment if that link doesn't work, I bought it off the iTunes store)

Liam Lynch



Liam Lynch is a really fucking funny guy. He did "United States of Whatever" and that song was funny. And his album Fake Songs is extremely funny. And his web-show called Lynchland is amazingly funny. And he did the Tenacious D movie which I nearly wet my pants while watching. :. Mr. Lynch is a funny guy.

Plus he's actually a good musician (see: Get Up On The Raft) and has great taste in everything (like music and movies and pop culture in general). He's pretty much my favourite comedian of recent times.

Also, I got a shitload of seminal hip-hop and rap courtesy of Bouzo. Thanks man, I put Jungle Brothers, k-os and another Tribe... album on the USB. GZA/Genius - Liquid Swords is incredible. And Raekwon - Only Built 4 Cuban Linx is really quite good also.

Might be time to either:
a) Study English
b) Set up Xbox Live
c) Bathe.

I'll go with c...maybe...

GZA/Genius - Shadowboxin' (feat. Method Man)

PS. You can listen to Dinosaur Jr. - Farm on their myspace. I recommend doing it.

Thursday, June 18, 2009

Dreamings

I'm writing a progressive rock epic.
It's called: Dreamings of a Retard Parts I-VII and is quite amazing/inspirational.
I'm pretty much the definitive songwriter of this generation. The Bob Dylan, if you will. I take it to the next level. Seriously.
It'll be a double album featuring myself and anyone else who wants to contribute to the 7 parts of pure genius.
Part 1: The Birthing and Characteristics
Part 2: The Demon Within
Part 3: Transit Blues
Part 4: Del Diablo Se Puso De Manifiesto
Part 5: Brain Scramble
Part 6: The Holy Valley
Part 7: The Bending Road

Also, Part VIII is a double album in itself.

I'll sell millions.

Here's some photos from a Dreamings session:


^ The Mastermind

Monday, June 15, 2009

The Beatles: Rock Band

I want this for my birthday with all the peripherals. It will be amazing.



Seriously. Complete my gaming life.